Just one more step and you're in the light. It's right there for you to enjoy, just as soon as you make the choice to give yourself permission to allow yourself to receive your enjoyment.
What you're asking for—your deepest, truest, yearning—is ready for you from the moment you are ready to receive it.
Food, shelter, companionship, and all the other material accoutrements of human life, rather than beinig the objects of our deepest desires are merely the symbols of what we really wish to have, which is to continually experience the wonderful sensations, feelings, emotions, of being human: we don't experience a house, we experience the sense of security that comes from being in that house; we don't experience an apple, we experience the sense of satiety from having eaten the apple; we don't experience a friend, we experience the sense of connection and love from being with them.
Life's light is all in being.
Pleased to meet you, how do you be?